Ennui
July 19, 2008, 00:54
It's finally the weekend! The past week has been really hectic as I was swamped with work that time flew really quickly. Next week is expected to be worse, with the work week beginning on Sunday. So much rest is needed before I blaze my way through the week. It has dawned on me that I have been living each week as it is, devoid of meaning and fulfillment. Not that I dont like my job. Its just that I cant help feeling emotionally constrained. In spite of the momentary happiness, much of my emotional landscape has been a harsh and desolate wasteland. Perhaps my detached state could be due to a cultivated sense of cynicism, after seeing how dark and dirty politics can be. Perhaps, its a means of biding for time while waiting for something better to come along. Perhaps its a fear of being hurt.
I know I wont be doing this for my entire life. I know what I hope to do and know that this stage of my life will serve to build me up for what I hope to do in the future.
Next week, some of us will be hosted to dinner at the Turf Club's VIP Box and watch a few races. It will be the first time that I have gone to the Turf Club and I am looking forward to that.
Havent had much time to go to the gym. Will try to catch up on reading and working out over the very short wkend.
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